Monday 1 June 2015

"Root Cause"


What if I had not been the studious little girl and had been more interested in music?
Wasn't that my mother's secret desire? That I will grow up to become a world famous vocalist one day?
What if I had continued with the classical music lessons that I left after a year or two of training when I was ten?
Would I have been world famous by now, made many world trips, visited the exotic places of the world that I wish to visit one day already for my musical concerts?
I would definitely have achieved by now what I mean to achieve ten years down the line(travel wise at least) with the life that I have chosen, probably.
Would I have been  happier then?

What if I did study very seriously for medical entrance examinations during my Plus II?
What if I had become a neurosurgeon by now or be on my way to become one?
Would I have been happier then than I am now as I would be more respected and revered for my job, probably?

What if I hadn't been so smitten by Economics during my undergrad days, pursued law instead and became a judge like my father? I would have all the requirements and highly placed contacts in the Indian Law Circle to have had an accelerated career. Unlike present where I am having to prove my worth to everyone at every stage of it.
Would I have loved it if everything had been laid out to me on a platter?
Wouldn't that have been a monotonous life, gifted by someone and not self made?

I'd like to believe that none of the above choices would have made me happier or would have given me greater peace than I am at today.
I have always taken the road less traveled, did the opposite of what I had been advised to do and have been usually been good at whatever I chose to do(or so I was made to believe).

Because this way, I go to sleep every night thinking this life I chose has not been super-imposed upon me by anyone and I do my best to make it work.
I try to find happiness even in the not-so-happy situations.
Because this life of mine is entirely mine. My creation. My design. My baby.

I choose to stay in a city away from family, because this way people adore me for who I am and not just pretend to due to a family name that I may be associated with.

Someday probably I will go back to my roots, but not before I have grown magnificent branches of my own that are independent enough to flourish without those roots. 
Someday when people will find it more interesting to talk about the magnificence of the branches themselves rather than that of the roots.

P.S. Lets not go all scientific about how the roots give rise to the branches. The genetics of it all. That is not the point being made here. :/